As I walk quickly through the kitchen I ask you to grab your back pack and throw the lunch in it that I had just made you, so you would be completely ready to go. I tell you that I just have to get myself ready really quick and then we’ll load up. A few minutes later you skip into my bathroom and go “wow, mom! You get ready so fast!” Without even realizing it my mind instantly replays the entire morning. It replays getting you ready and combing your hair, getting your lunch made, answering some work e-mails, changing diapers, getting the boy’s room picked up and both of them dressed and then making my way back across the house quickly to go throw clothes on myself. I replay grabbing the easiest dress and sandals I can find and throwing them on. I replay looking in the mirror and realizing I don’t have the time to fix my hair so I just grab the head wrap I had on the day before and put it on again. Then throw some deodorant on and accept that I am as ready as it’s going to get. When you came skipping in I had just glanced at my two day old make-up and pasty face and thought about the days I used to leave for work every morning completely put together. The days I used to shower on a daily basis, do my make up on a daily basis, and actually feel attractive on a regular basis. But as I replay all these thoughts I realize it is part of the beauty of motherhood. As challenging as it is at times, you learn to rid yourself of selfishness and give yourself fully to others. Your family’s needs become your highest priority and you learn to manage your own needs around theirs. If I’ve learned anything over the past 5 years, it’s that there is no room for selfishness in parenting or in marriage for that fact. I know the time will come that there will be time for “me” again, but for now, accepting, and even enjoying, this stage in life keeps me going. It’s definitely a learning process that I’m sure continues through all your parenting years.
I know that many of my posts have told you this, but I just want to say it again … I am absolutely amazed at the love I feel for you and your brother. Before having kids you have no idea that this type of love exists. It’s overwhelming and makes you examine yourself and your own life more than ever before. It makes you fearful. Fearful that something could happen to you or your brother, something I’m not sure I would ever fully recover from. Fearful that I often don’t respond to you with the patience I should and fearful that it will someday hurt our relationship and bond. Fearful that me and your daddy won’t have the wisdom we need to properly discipline you the way you personally need to point you in the right direction in life. It seems like the fears and the concerns never end when you become a parent. There’s a constant fear and weight on your shoulders that I’m not sure ever goes away. You don’t fully understand the gravity of having smalls souls entrusted to you, until you actually have those precious beings in your arms. However, watching you grow and your personality explode over the last 2 1/2 years have been the best times of my life. Through good days and bad, I feel so blessed to have you and your little brother. We, as a family, are so incredibly blessed and I hope that we raise you to be grateful for these blessings.
Here are some things you have said and done over the last 4 months, a snap shot of your personality:
*Me (getting ready for church) – Do I look good?
You- yah…no. (Pause) You look terrible.
*you are such a little momma. You try to sooth, cuddle, feed, etc Easton. You’ll wake up in the morning and run to him going “hey buddy!”
*I realized that I probably leave you in your pjs too much when I told you “we need to go get dressed.” And you said “to go where?” Haha.
* You were digging in the dirt (which we have plenty of, this backyard is awful right now) and you pulled up our security sign that goes by the back door. When I saw you walking around with it I went to take it from you and you quickly said “Look, I have an octagon!” Then after I took it from you, you promptly said “Can I have my octagon back?” Lol. At least you know your shapes. Ignore the fact that you looks like a homeless child. I promise you get bathed. : )
*when we were on our way to Wally…
You- you can’t go, that light is red.
Me- no, it just turned green.
You- it’s kinda red.
….driving advice from a stubborn 2 year old….
*You came into Easton’s room while I changed his diaper …
You- look at me!
Me- you got dressed! … In pink head to toe. You look good. Where are you going?
You- I’m not going anywhere. ::pause:: I look good for Jesus.
Me- oh you do?
You- yah, and God too. Jesus is God’s son.
*(Watching an abc video) Hey! I just saw a K. My name is Kinsley.
YOU… crazy crazy you:
*Even though you have a lot of sassy moments, you ARE very funny too, and you crack me up every day. I just wish you cracked me up more than you sassed me. Ha!
*You are EXTREMELY hyper. Like extremely. Like bouncing off the walls crazy. I worry for you in school. You’re super bright and quick, but you just can’t sit still to save you life. You’re always constantly fidgeting.
*You refer to daddy as “my daddy” and me as “my mommy”. “Where is my daddy??” It’s pretty stinking cute.
*Naked naked naked naked naked. Oh, and pantyless. A lot. We’re working on teaching you some modesty!
*You’re very VERY verbal. You can carry on conversations with older kids easy. You love to talk and ask questions too. In fact, you pretty much talk non-stop from the time you wake up until you go to sleep. It’s fun that you can talk so well and carry on conversations with me, but I’m not gonna lie, sometimes I miss the quiet before you could talk. Ha.
*You LOVE to play with other kids. You would go anywhere if I told you there were going to be kids there. You have no problem just running up to a kid and starting to talk to them. No matter where we are or whether you know them, if there is a kid there, you are playing with them. I love that about you. I love that you enjoy other kids so much and love to play and be social. You are going to absolutely love school.
*You absolutely love it when we get to make cookies or communion bread. Mainly because you like to lick an put your tongue on everything you possibly can. Ha. You also like to “help” me cook. After we get done you love to play with the dishes in the sink and transfer the water around.
*While Easton was going through his fussy, clingy stage it was hard for me to divide my time between y’all. Now as he is growing out of his fussier stage and his personality and understanding are growing, it is easier to play with you both at the same time.
*Like any two year old you go through different stages and they change often. Sometimes you’re super sweet, caring, and loving. Other times you can be super sassy, defiant, and stubborn. All in all you are one spunky crazy kid, and I wouldn’t change your personality for anything.
*You love PINK. Like pink everything. You would wear pink head to toe every single day if we had enough pink clothes that you didn’t run out. It is easily your favorite color.
*You go into your closet and get yourself dressed every morning. Every time you get dressed you either put on a dress, or put on the same color shirt and skirt. You think you don’t match if you don’t have on all the same color. We went through a stage with you that you would argue with us about what you were going to wear out. Thankfully this stage passed pretty quick. You do still have a strong opinion on what you like and don’t like to wear but you don’t argue with us like you used to. You love clothes though and you love to get dressed up!
I was doing some sewing and you were my little helper. You like to hand me the pins and to stick them back into the pin cushion when I’m done with them. You always hand me the pink ones first. : )
A little bit about you and your daddy:
Your daddy doesn’t get on here much, so I wanted to take a second to tell you a little bit about you and him. You absolutely ADORE your daddy. It is for good reason too, he is so great with you. You get so excited when dad gets home from work and will start running around like a crazy person cause you are so happy. Then for a lot of the evening you are practically attached to his side. You will follow him around while he puts his stuff away and gets changed, then you guys will take Zoey for a short walk a lot of days, and then we usually have dinner. Most nights Dad puts you down for bed and he’ll lay in there with you for a bit and tell you stories and sing to you. You hear a lot of Bible stories during this time and love it when we tell them over and over and over again. Your current favorite is Jonah. You could listen to this story multiple times every day. When I see you two together and how great your daddy is with you it makes me love him more and more and makes me even more grateful for our family and all we have together. Seeing how attached you are to him and how much you love him melts my heart and makes me so thankful that I found such a great man to be the leader of our family. I hope that our family bond will do nothing but grow and strengthen throughout the years and that you will always turn to us when you need someone to fall back on.
It’s hard to believe that your next post will be when you’re THREE years old. I can’t believe it. Seems like I blinked once an here you are such a big kid. I’m afraid that i’m going to blink again and you will already be in school. It’s crazy how fast time flies. I love seeing you guys grow up, but I can’t help but feel sad at how fast it happens. Watching you grow and develop into the little person you are is the most rewarding thing I have ever gotten to do. We love and adore you little girl!
It is crazy how fast time runs past you when you have little kids. I thought it was flying by when we were a family of three. Now that we have Easton it seems to have sped up even more. I suppose it’s a good thing that the days fly by, definitely doesn’t leave any time for dull moments. : )
Here is a little about you over the last 4 months. I probably didn’t keep track of near as much as I usually would have since life has been so hectic lately. I’ll tell you more about that later though.
24 months- we finally took the paci away from you! You seem to be adjusting decently well. I just had to bribe you with jelly beans. Ha.
25 months- you say “I love you!” randomly to me and your daddy a lot. It melts my heart hearing it. You also love to give lots of kisses. For a girl who is so independent and crazy, you sure are quite giving in the loving department.
25 months- anytime you get hurt you make me kiss it. Apparently it makes it almost immediately better. Ha.
25 months- can recognize max and jakes names written.
25 months- can say the New Testament Gospels
25 months- wants me to kiss everything that hurts and will point right where you want it kissed and say “right here!”
25 months- we stopped staying in the room with you until you go to sleep at night because you kept waking up in the middle of the night. We realized that if you can’t put yourself to sleep, why would you be able to put yourself back to sleep in the middle of the night when you woke up? Once we started just doing a bedtime routine and then leaving you and letting you put yourself to sleep, you stopped waking up in the middle of the night! Whew! Talk about exhausting… feeding a baby all night, and having a two year old that wont sleep through the night.
26 months- you love love love swimming. You climb in a floaty and just kick yourself all over the pool. You were a little skittish at first, but now you’ll swim anywhere in your little floaty.
27 months- you are such a little copy cat! You repeat things I say and do so often that it’s scary! You’ll “tickle” Easton and kiss him and tell him you “love him sooo much.” It’s funny to see you do things like that copying me. You are such a little mom to him, it’s adorable.
27 months- your prayers have become quite wordy these days. You pray for everything you see, plus some. “Dear father in heaven, thanks for max, jake, momma, dada, Easton, coffee cups, windows, cabinet doors, dog treats, cars, momma, dada, Easton, house, pasta. In Jesus name, amen!”
28 months- You have began imaginative play. (Acting like you are making food and feeding me and Easton) “I made it myself!
28 months- the terrible twos are in full swing. You’re strong willed, independent, sassy, bossy, and very disobedient a lot of days. Me and your daddy are very consistent with disciplining you and I hope and pray that it registers one day soon that you will not get away with disobeying. If we tell you not to do something you can pretty much guarantee that you’re gonna do it immediately after we tell you not to. We hate having to discipline you so much, but we’ve all seen what terrors kids are who aren’t disciplined. Especially kids with a personality similar to yours who are so strong willed and stubborn. We refuse to let you be that way. For your sake and soul. You’re extremely bright and catch on quick to what you can and can’t get away with. I know you’ll figure out this whole obeying thing. I’m sure it’s just a phase you’re going through. Hopefully by the next post I write for you, you’ll be an angel. : P
28 months- you have a fascination with putting things in your pj pants. It is so weird, but pretty funny at times.
28 months- you are in constant dialogue. I climbed on your step stool to put the hardware on the cabinets above the fridge and you started saying “oh, okay momma. You stand on my stool. That’s okay momma, you stand on my stool. You’re welcome momma, you’re welcome. That’s okay you stand on my stool, you’re welcome.”
28 months- at max’s birthday party a lady had sat down in front of where your cake was and you wanted back up there to it so you said “excuse me!” She just sat there and kinda looked at you for a second so you promptly said “get out of my way!” I about choked on my tongue. You sure have the talking thing down, proper social etiquette, not so much. Ha!
28 months- you walked up to someone in target and said “excuse you.”
28 months- Easton didn’t nap very long and had been up with me. You actually took like a 2hr nap (wow!!) and when you woke up you came into the living room waving your hand and saying “hi, I’m awake!” When Easton heard your voice he jerked his head your way and started grinning and kicking his legs excitedly. He loves you so much and loves being entertained by you!
28 Months- You have one of the spunkiest and goofy personalities of any 2 year old I’ve ever met. It is exhausting some days (okay, most. haha!), but I love how funny and happy-go-lucky you are. You’re turning into such a big girl and it makes me so sad. Not that I’d want to keep you little forever, but it is just going by so, so fast. The other day at church we went to wash your hands after you went to the bathroom and your hands could reach the water without me picking you up. When did this happen?!? It seems like just yesterday that your tiny little 9 month old feet were running laps up and down the center isle at the church building and now you’re becoming so independent and so big.
28 months- You love to run into Easton’s room in the morning when we go to get him out of his crib. You squeal with delight and climb up the side of his crib and start talking to him. You love it when I let you climb in with him and he’ll just grin his head off while you jump around like a crazy person and then bear hug him.
The whole house selling and buying process:
After our house sold we moved in with Nona and Papa while looking for a new house. You adjusted pretty quickly and probably loved the constant attention you got while we were living there. You loved playing with Nona and getting to sing with her all the time and loved getting to spend most everyday in the pool with Max and Jake. They are your favorite little buddies and you’re always talking about them. After looking and looking and looking we finally found the perfect house for us, it just needed A LOT of work. After we closed on the house we spent about 6 weeks of many, MANY long days working on getting it fixed up. It was easily one of the most exhausting and trying times of my life, but all the big stuff is done now and we were able to move in. Now we’re just slowly finishing up details. It is much easier to work while you guys nap when I can just hop to it since we’re right here. You have adapted to this move quite well also. Being in a new environment definitely affected your sleep at first, but I think you are starting to adjust to being in a new environment and hopefully we’ll get you completely back on track soon. You have been able to let yourself out of the room ever since we moved in here, and you have done alright with it. Having the freedom to come and go out of your room has always messed with your sleep in the past. You seem to always be afraid you’re gonna miss out on something and so as soon as you crack an eye, you are up and out of the room even if you’ve only been down for a short time. Now that you’re more used to the new house you have been sleeping better though. We are so excited for the memories we are going to get to make in this house, and excited that we get to be so close to family!
We love you and adore you sweet cheeks. I am so thankful I get to be your and Easton’s momma. I am beyond blessed.
These last several months have been crazy busy and have flown by SO fast. Easton made a surprise appearance after dumb me fell off a bar stool, and you have adjusted so well to him being here. Here is a little snap shot of the last 3 months of your life. : )
21 months- You love communion bread! We had the communion back in January and I always make an extra loaf. You loved going to town on the extra one. We’ll have to make it more often for fun!
21 months- I see you copy exact actions of mine. It scares me! Ex: I yell at the dogs to go out so I can shut the dog door. You will mimic me exactly and yell at them and point to the door. Agh.
21 months- for the longest time you would just say “no” to everything no matter what. Lately if its something you want you will say “mhmm” instead. You still won’t just say “yes,” but “mhmm” is cuter anyway and gets the point across. : )
21 months- You began potty training! See previous post for that whole experience. I think you did AWESOME for how young you were. Way to rock potty training sweet cheeks!
22 months- So I decided to get another bag of sonic ice on the way home since we were out. You were falling asleep in the backseat and I was trying to keep you awake so I told you I’d get you a treat at sonic and it’d be delicious! So we get there and I decide to get you a small watermelon slushy. (First time ever to get a flavored drink at sonic and weren’t happy when I went to hand it to you cause I think you thought you were just getting a water like usual) So you take a drink and smile and I say “that’s yummy huh?” And you nodded your head and said “deliiiiicious.” I cracked up. Can’t believe you picked up on that word with me only saying it once when you were half asleep. Silly girl.
22 months- Easton was born! … and you LOVE kissing all over him. TOO much. Ha.
22 months- began to try to stand up to pee because you saw dada do it.
22 months- You are so sweet and SO good with “bubba.” You have turned into such a little mom. Wants to change his diaper, wipe him, feed him blue berries, constantly kiss him, lay down next to him anytime he’s on the floor, hold him, announce any time he’s doing something different (Easton pooping, Easton sleeping, Easton toot, Easton sneeze, Easton crying, Easton awake), etc. You like to get out the stuff I need for me to change his diaper and love to go get things for me like his paci when I need them. You are going to LOVE it when he gets on the move and you can start playing with him more.
22 months- got sick for the first time. : ( You were completely miserable with a faucet for a nose, a croaky cough that would make you cry out in pain, hoarse voice, and fever. It was impossible to keep you out of Easton’s face and sadly he ended up getting it. Turns out you passed RSV on to him. It was scary scary for this momma who isn’t used to having a sick kid let alone a sick newborn.
22 months- love it when you look up at me and say “momma, pick up me!” And then give me a huge hug. I love you so much!!!
23 months- seems like its always the little things that touch me the most with you. Today I was helping you do a painting on a canvas and you were loving it … All the sudden you stop and look over at me and give me a big smooch on the cheek and then got right back to work. A lot of times ill randomly kiss you on the top of the head, and I know that you were probably just copying what I’ve done to you 100x in the past, but it made my day. It was your way of saying “love you, mom.”
23 months- You and dada were getting ready to leave to go to Home Depot while I made dinner… And I told you “Bye, ill miss you!” And you replied with “uh huh” then you guys went and wiped your nose and did a couple other things and then as you were heading to the back door to leave you said “Bye mama, i’ll miss you.” Haha. Such a little copy cat, but so cute!
23 months- Wanted to pray for potato head. Haha!
23 months- I love love love love how you will give me random kisses sporadically throughout the day. You make me feel so loved. I really hope I make you feel the same way. I know I’m not near as good at it now that Easton is here and I have my hands full.
23 months- I really can’t tell you how much I love watching your personality develop! You are so spunky and goofy and you love when we laugh at you. You are also talking SO much. You will repeat anything we or someone else says and are putting full sentences together!
24 months- there have been times over the last two months that I have expected you to be way more grown up than you are. With the craziness of chasing you around while also trying to take care of a baby I know I often had expectations for your behavior that were above what you were capable. I think I am getting it down now though. When I get to randomly cuddle with you or hold you as you fall asleep it’s a great reminder that you are still a baby yourself. You’re my little girl that is still my favorite little sidekick. For almost 2 years it was just me and you doing our thing. I can’t imagine the adjustment that you have gone through also the last couple months. The craziness of having two has made me get impatient with you way way more than I want and my goal is to fix that problem. Sadly, I need to work to remember that you are not a nuisance, you are just my crazy little girl that constantly needs to be corralled. Haha. The love and pride that fills me when I look at you and see the precious little being you are becoming is indescribable.
A little bit about you at two:
You’re independent, outgoing, happy go lucky, march to your own tune, crazy, rambunctious, noisy, and destructive. You are so so so hyper. You wear me plum out a lot of days, but I wouldn’t change your personality for anything. You are definitely a unique little thing, and I love that about you.
You LOVE to be around and play with other kids and I know you’re gonna love it when Easton is big enough to play with you.
You’re extremely goofy and love it when people laugh at you and give you attention.
Sometimes you still freak out and start crying for me randomly when you get upset, but you haven’t been doing it as much lately and I think you’re about through that stage.
You don’t have a ladylike bone in your body. It reminds me of a story Grammy has always told me for years about myself. That mom would have me dressed up in the frilliest dresses and there I would be out there with all the boys playing football with bow and curls in hair just bouncing around crazy. I have a feeling you are going to be very similar. I like that. I don’t know how I’d handle a prissy girl. : )
The one girly thing you have going for you is that you love shoes! You love putting them on, taking them off, trying on 20 different pairs every day, etc.
You have finally started sleeping through the night without waking up. After Easton got here I just couldn’t get up with you also at night and so dada did it for awhile. Then we decided it was time to let you just figure it out, and you caught on pretty quickly. Thankfully since about 23 months you have been sleeping through the night without us having to go in there. We do still have you locked in the room though. Hopefully soon we’ll be able to take that off.
About our family:
We sold our house! We should close the beginning of May. It is really exciting, but also kind of sad to be leaving our first home. The home that you and your brother were both brought home to, and the home that is where many of your firsts happened. I’m excited for what the future holds though. I hope we find the perfect house that we can create many more memories in!
We found Kimbo a new home only days before Easton was born. It was probably selfish of me to want to get rid of him, but my cleaning load has almost cut in half since he’s been gone. He just shed so bad and tracked so much dirt, mud, and other junk in that I was constantly sweeping and mopping. It feels so great to not have to constantly clean up after a dog!! Zoey didn’t seem to be phased at all by his leaving. She follows us around more and sleeps a lot more, but other than that she is pretty much the same crazy little animal that you love so much.
Your Second Birthday!
These are just notes that I kept in my phone while you were potty training. Thanks for being such a rock star sweet cheeks, and doing it so early for me! : D
Day 1- Tuesday: Jan 8th- 21 months
3 out of 7.5
1 out of 1 poops
1.5 out of 7
3 out of 4
.5 out of 3 poops
2.5 out of 3
1 out of 2 poops
4 out of 4 pees
2 out of 3 poops
4 out of 5 pees
1 out of 1 poops
Home: 4.5 out of 6 pees
1 out of 2 poop
First underwear morning going great. We got out and went to Rachel Whaleys so I could get adjusted and I put a pull up on her and she did not pee in it. She actually just sat on the toilet at Rachel’s and went in the toilet for the first time out in public. So that’s exciting!
Having underwear on did not go good once we got home. She kept having accidents! So I decided to give her a little more time naked, and maybe by wed she’ll be ready for undies. We’ll see.
Day 8: Tuesday
Back to just running around naked
4 of 4 pees
2 of 2 poops
Day 9: wed
Day 10: Thursday
No accidents at all, even in pull up when out and about! Did still pee in diaper over night and at nap time though. Only dribbled once on way to toilet. Yay!!
Day 11: Friday- beginning to try underwear again instead of being completely naked.
Wore undies around the house and no accidents in underwear! Did pee in pull up though when we were at SAMs. She told me she needed to pee, but I had no idea where the bathroom was.
Day 12: Sat
Terrible day with several undies accidents.
Day 13: Sun
Did GREAT. Did not pee in pull up at all even though we were out and about most of the day for church. Also only had one accident at home when I turned the bath water on and you peed on the bathroom floor. You did SO good today. So proud of you!! Maybe you will catch on and not have accidents when you have undies on!!
Day 14- Mon
No accidents while we were out, but had an accident in undies at home.
Day 15- Tues
2 accidents out of 8 pees. With underwear and including while out in a pull up.
Day 16- Wed
One accident in undies at home
Day 17- Thurs
First day with NO accidents while out or at home!! We even spent TWO hours at the park. I made you squeeze out what little bit you had in there before we left and we were about a half mile from getting back home when you started saying you needed to go so I started walking super fast (I already speed walk so pretty much a slow jog haha) and told you to hold it! … And you did hold it until we got home! I don’t expect this to be an everyday thing and I know you’ll still have accidents sometimes, but it was a nice payoff!! SO proud of you! I think it’s really starting to click!
Day 21- Mon- Jan 28th
I’ve come to realize that if you have a pull-up on you are much more likely to just go in it without telling me, so today was the first day we were completely in panties. You were accident free today!!!!
Day 22- Tues
You did great in your panties when we were out and about, but you had one accident in them at home.
Day 23- Wed
In panties all day long and accident free! I think you have this whole thing down!
Day 24- Thurs
Even though we drove all the way down to visit Granny and Pappy and you were stuck in the car for awhile and in a completely new environment, your panties still stayed dry all day! Yay! You also told me at Joann’s Fabric Store that you needed to poop, and you did, and you also needed to go when we were at the park so I pulled your panties down and let you squat and go. Haha! Hey, don’t judge.
Day 25- Fri
When you have to go you always say “poop.” It’s not until after you actually go that you say “peet!” or “poop!” depending on which one you did. When you just feel the urge to do either you say “poop!” From here on out I expect you’ll have accidents every so often, but I think for the most part you have the process down. It’s been an interesting month, but you have done awesome! So glad I won’t have two babies diapers to change when Easton comes!!